I've fallen & I don't want to get up ...

I recently connected with a lady I went to highschool with and we are pretty much a couple now. Her son is even asking "When I am going to start being his dad?" which strangely enough does not scare me ... I am thinking of having my head examined.

She is a nice person and I find her attractive . . . I enjoy her company so much that I even blew off a couple of workouts last week. That won't be happening too often, I have a marathon to train for. Beside that life is good and pretty much unchanged. I have begun to do more strenght training and have been relagated to treadmill running indoors by the winter ... I cannot run outside when it gets too cold ... I am not where I wanted to be distance wise so I need to crack the whip.

Isn't it Ironic ...

I received an email today ... about why men die first. It was a joke about how we just cant win. No matter what we do when it comes to women .... I mention it because I got an email-forward from an acquaintance last week. You know the kind ... it says I'm thinking of you but you don't actually mean enough to take a moment & send you a real message.

I replied to her email stating that I miss connecting with her for coffee - something that used to happen every other week just as a matter of coincidence. Her reply was "you have my numbers" . . . & she is right, I have her number & I have dialed it. She also has mine & she has never dialed it without me specifically asking her to get back to me. Does that mean I should try HARDER to show that I might be interested in pursuing any kind of a relationship? If someone does not phone you is it not a subtle way of saying "you really do not matter much in my world". This one is just one more example of me chasing after relationships that are unavailable ... & I don't believe that I want to go there today. So there; I have said it I am sick & tired of women who tell me all the things they claim to want & proceed to act out in the exact opposite fashion. GET BENT!