I want what I want when I want it ...

... and that is all I want.    But a friend of mine posted a quote from Corinthians today on FB

Therefore let anyone who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall.
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

and I thought about that . ...   I don't have to act on my base instincts and  cravings.   I have free will but I do not have to act on them.  However, every now & then I see a treat and I think "I have gone without long enough;  I deserve a treat."    All that I need to remember is that I am happy with my life the way it is  ....  and sometimes my actions might have undesirable consequences.

... and then it was done.

The food eaten  the guests talked out and sent home with leftovers and the dishes washed & put away ....   Time for me to make myself a coffee & go out on the deck to sit down and have a chat with God.   Life is good ....

The calm before the ...

It is the lull between when the house starts to smell like a roast beef dinner & when I have to figure out how to make the rest of the meal on only 2 burners.  So I thought that I would take a moment to do this ....

If you are reading this today (whatever day today is ...) know that you are loved. You are important to someone ... and someone you love needs to hear from you TODAY.

In a moment I will go out there and saute the mushrooms in butter & red wine that I will add to the gravy I make from the drippings.   Then I will start the potatoes for mashed and I'll blanche the green beans.  Then I'll try to figure out what I've forgotten  ... in a vain attempt to avoid stress as it all comes together.    In the end I will sit down & enjoy a nice dinner with the GF & her mom.    And after that, a long weekend will draw to a close.

I will clean the kitchen, wash the dishes and enjoy a coffee out on the deck and have a momentary "conversation with God".  I'll take a moment to thank him for all that is good in my life today and for the opportunity to enjoy this existence.  And then I'll say a prayer for anyone who is struggling,  suffering, alone or less fortunate.  Then I will look to the upcoming week and try to determine how to fit in all the things that require my undivided attention ....   & for that I am grateful.  

Peter, lovest thou me?

 ... Feed My Sheep!


Sometime this weekend, take a moment to be grateful for what little time you actually get to spend with the people you love ... too soon it shall have passed.

I just had a wonderful meal and a visit with my family ....   It is good to get in some face time as rare as it is.   I take it for granted that they are out there but  as I explained to someone this evening, there once were 7 of us (members of my immediate family) and now there are 6.    There is one person that I took for granted who I will never see or talk to ever again.   How soon until that number changes again?

Now, in all fairness, I have a nephew and 2 nieces  that I didn't have in 1975 ...  My eldest niece has a new nephew ...  so my extended family continues to be in a state of flux .... As the older (and sometimes not so old)  pass away new blood  comes into the world  .. the clan/tribe grows here and fades there  ... the cycle of life at its best ....   But eventually, we all die and then we have no more time to tell each other how much we mean ... how important they/we are ... and how we feel.    If I keep that in mind ...  maybe  I should tell you how much you mean to me today.   MAybe I should accept you as you are  ...  the sweet & the sour ... the wheat & the chaff  ... the desirable & the less desirable ...because someday I  may not be here any more.   Or worse  YOU may not be here ...

Peter, lovest thou me?          

 ... Feed My Sheep!.

Time ... linear time ... the kind of time we experience here on the planet earth ... is fleeting [ ... Madness takes its toll ...]  and the shadow-play of light & dark is like scents on the wind ... and we are like dogs (or Wolves)   we experience them  in passing ....  Some are intense and enjoyable, others are intense and almost painful to experience.   Some are faint and often go unnoticed in the maelstrom of or day to day struggle for existence.  But they are there  ... the people  and places and things that make up the collective experiences of any given lifetime ... are there.  And each  are only ever experienced one single time ...  Some are best experienced in the instant and then forgotten ....  Others are savored and should be cherished ...  Peter, lovest thou me ... Feed My Sheep!   And you mission, whether you choose to accept it or not, is to experience them all regardless ....


As you pass through this existence ... maybe try to remember that  and remember that you create ripples in the universal truth ... try to think twice before you act ... those ripples wash across many shores ...

10 cents per pound ...

There must have been 30,000 pounds of bananas delivered to my Loblaws because they were selling them for $0.10/lb yesterday.   That's right   and they were healthy and yellow & actually tasted good ....  what a treat.    I don't get a lot of breaks like that lately.   I didn't buy any more than I normally would have but I felt blessed for the break, all the same.

In case you are unaware of  it, we are having an election here in Canada.  Not that we needed one, not that we can afford another one  ...  but I guess the aristrocracy felt that they were ready ... so we have one.  Aparently the NDP were not ready; they have hardly any candidates, if lawn signs are any indication.   And the ones they do have are too busy with their university courses & studies to actually bother to campagin.  Candidates in name only ...  What would they do if we elected them?  Would they quit going to school and take the job seriously?   Would they leave their high paying professor jobs to be a hard-working MP?  Or would they do a half-baked job of being an MP as well?   You have to wonder ...  and while you are wondering you might ask yourself  are the parties in collusion and these candidates are token offerings, that  the party is not intending them to win ...  almost actually saying vote for the other party and we're OK with that  ...  I would ask Jack Layton that  in person if I cared about the NDP - but I don't.

So in closing,  I got a good deal on bananas yesterday  ....  and until election day B.S. is  free & plentiful here in Canada ...  but be forewarned,  no matter who you put out for on election day  ....  They are not likely to buy you dinner.  And if you are gullible enough they will  _ _ _  in your mouth. Just Sayin'

Half April ... "Fugit Hora"

Yes the hour is fleeting indeed.   I know that better than most.  I don't do linear time but that does not change a thing.  Time flies and everything comes and in turn goes.   Sigh.

I am still in love and I still run ... I still work & buy lottery tickets.  I still miss people who have come & gone from my life.  I still fear losing the people I cherish in my world.   So it doesn't matter that I don't do linear time because I live in a world that is subject to linear time.   Which means that although it cannot affect me without my  choosing to be affected ... it affects everyone & everything that I love.   And in that it affects me.  How does God do this?    How can he love so fully, completely and purely, and not get jaded?

Long time no blog

and I really don't have much to say ...