Feeling the Moon-Tides

... on that note, for your information on Monday, 14 February 2033 there will be a full moon. I know that it is still a little ways out, but now you can say that you heard it here first.

I have a craving. It gets in my head & it likes to rent space. The thing is the craving & my long-term reality are incompatible. If I act out the consequences will not be worth the momentary enjoyment. So I resist & hope the craving passes from my thoughts.

This being a new calendar year I have decided to focus on my undesirable self-sabotaging behaviours. I will reprogram my life " one day at a time" ... no matter what. But how do I start? Who can I phone up and say "hey I am really embarrassed about this but I `[do this]` and it is causing my life to be unmanageable"? I have many years of sobriety / clean & serene time but I am still acting out. And shame and self-loathing are formidable adversaries ... you don't have to take my word for it but I AM a Subject Matter Expert.

Just for today ...