her name. Wow, yesterday I was talking with a friend & for an instant I couldn't remember the name of the last woman I had been dating. I couldn't see her face in my mind's eye ... I couldn't remember her scent .... I couldn't feel her out there ... For a moment she was gone. Now that might not mean much to you, unless you know that I have never forgotten a lover. There are a couple that I cannot remember the names of ... (from the days when I drank) but I rememebr their faces ... I remember their scent & I know when & if they are close to me - I feel them, even years later.
So I was a bit suprised that I had forgotten Natalie, even for an instant. The reasons for this is (1) until this happened I have been quite obsessed with her memory. She was aftter all the most recent person I let into my soul. It hurt quite a bit when she decided that we needed to stop ... (2) I don't often forget a person so completely as I had forgotten her. OF course I had asked that the obsession be lifted and there is much going on in my world so I should not be suprised ... But just to be on the safe side I think I'll start doing some memory-exercises and mind type work.
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