I have two favorite distractions in my life, one is the gym & the other involves ... oh let's not go there. Anyway, I just spent a day doing the run, gym, breakfast watch the game on tv thing and I am craving the OTHER distraction. Now that is all well and good but the other distraction does not come without consequences ... and I am not done licking my wounds from the last time yet. So it probably is not a good idea for me to go getting involved with another woman just now.
There are many reasons for me to be especially prudent about this; it is that time of year, and many relationships that begin between December & just after Valentines day frequently fail. They are often just lonely people getting involved with other people because they feel the season expects you to have a partner. Broken people thrust together for the wrong reasons seldom make for meaningful, loving, happy relationships. The other reason is that I am not certain that I love myself yet. I have to work on "intimacy" but not physical intimacy. I need to become more adept at emotional & spiritual intimacy ... I need to be able to have intimate inter-personal relationships with other people without sexuality. That is a tall order ...
... and when I think about all the hard work and effort that is involved in that, I just want a distraction. Water, water everywhere ... and not a drop to drink! SIGH
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